Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Reality Check

It's a little after three in the morning, Rick is snoring, Aren and Tatiana are sleeping soundly in their room, and I am wide awake thinking about way too many things, but one thing in particular is creeping into the corners of my mind.

I think most people are multi-faced. We have a face we put on for family, a face we put on for church, a face we put on for strangers. Lately I've discovered another face and that is my cyber face.

In the past day or two I've branched out into my cyber world and have done things I normally wouldn't do in real life. Cyber me has posted on other people's blogs about their pollitical rants. Real life me would've just sat and listened, probably rolled my eyes, maybe make a comment, but would never say anything remotely negative to their face. Cyber me has posted about someones article findings when it comes to aspartame and sounded very bitter. Real life me would probably have explained to this person her own experiences regarding autoimmune disorders and depression instead of taking a back door and talking to others about it.

It's a hard thing to balance cyber me and real life me. It's a lot easier to shove my thoughts into people's faces when I will never have to see them or even have to deal with their "comments". Hopefully I'll be able to strike a balance with this new face I've discovered.

11 comments:

Laura said...

Good luck! - Oh how I agree thought that people are multi-faced... But oh how I adore you - miss you!

Laurie said...

i personally love all the faces you make, especially the ones in the middle of church. wait... that's not what you're talking about, is it.

Lizzy T. said...

I totally agree with you, it's hard to find a balance when you post publicly about things you think privately that perhaps shouldnt be shared sometimes...at all...oh well, as long as we try hard to be good people in the big sense of life I guess it all works out in the end! I found it's important to remember that Cyber world is so easily non-reality that you can hardly count it as effective in a personal, connecting kind of way and from what I've seen often deteriorates relationships rather than building them...whoops, rambling again! :)

The Payne Gang said...

Blogs are our diaries. Most diaries should be burned, not be made available for the world to read. When we open our diaries to the world, we have to expect that someone will write a comment in the margin and tell us how dumb we are. We can choose to not believe them.
At some point we regret what we write in our diaries. But we learn from them. When we go back and read them, we remember how dumb we were and then we don't make the same mistakes, we get to make new ones.

The Payne Gang said...

In reference to my prior comment, the blogs to be burned were not yours by the way :)

Marissa said...

That computer screen makes everyone feel a little more powerful. KWIM?

kellyclay said...

I know I have many faces as well. :)

brossettelewis said...

isn't it fun. :)

*~Petra~* said...

I absolutely agree that we all have many faces, but I think that each of those faces are a part of us... or at least, a part of who we want to be, whether good or bad :)

BTW, I love cyber-you. :)

Katie said...

That is the beauty of cyberspace. :P

Velda said...

Cyber me is a size 8. Thank you Photoshop!